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Heart's Desire

#944 on list of all songs


Listen to the version recorded in February of 1986 at Green Gulch Farm. It's best and corrects "I'll be fast" to "I'll hold fast."


Heart's Desire

   C                            E7
It might look hard - it might look high
Bb9                    A7
Make me tired - make me sigh
             D76                                 F7
But if a camel can go through a needle's eye
          Am7          D76                      F7
Then even I can have my heart's desire
 

 C                            E7
It might not last - the way things do
Bb9                    A7
But I'll hold fast - and I'll be true
       D76                  F7
And if the first foot's in the fire
          Am7          D76                      F7
Then even I can have my heart's desire
 

Am7                  F7
Oh -------------- Oh --------------
Am7                  F7
Oh -------------- Oh--------------
Am7 E7      F7
Oh - you - could use a good friend too
Am7                          D7
Just like monks and monkeys do
Am7                            Am7
Oh you ----------------- Oh you --------------------
Am7         F7
Oh --------you -----------------------

 C                            E7
My mind is set then - on the path
Bb9                               A7
That changes nuff - to make you laugh
       D76             F7
And if we find a place that's ours
          Am7          D76                      F7
Then even we can have our heart's desire

 

[Repeat first verse with last line "even you"]


PDF of Words and chords as originally written - messy


The first recording of this song is from the 83-04 tape soon after I'd written it for Terry Killam whom I was enamored with. She came from an oil family in south Texas and we had friends in common. I met her when I was working on anti-nuclear songs. Suzie Benson introduced us. Terry helped out and later, much to her surprise, I paid her back. Terry had been living in (fellow Fort Worthian) John Denver's community in Aspen. On a trip through there I stayed at her parents' home (took me a while to find their booze) and visited her charming cabin. She studied with the trans-Buddhist Burmese teacher, Goenka. Terry became Treya and went on to marry Ken Wilber who wrote Grace and Grit about their relationship, her cancer, and death.  She was an impassioned seeker and, like most wealthy women, maybe people, she suffered because of her riches. The line in this song, "If a camel can go through a needle's eye, then even I can find my heart's desire," ending the first verse and "even you can have your heart's desire" ending the last verse and the song, refers to the famous Bible quote. I told her my interpretation of that was just that attachment, desire impedes understanding which is no secret and that having a lot of stuff tempts us to be attached but these are just difficulties, not impenetrable walls. I had read that the small door in the wall of a medieval Mid-eastern castle or city, a door that required camels to get unpacked and down on their knees to pass through, was  called, one name for it at least, was the Needle's Eye. The Needle's Eye is a camel door. The camel passes but must make an effort. She liked that so I wrote her this song.

This was Dianne Aigaki's favorite song of mine. She'd heard many because her mate from the eighties, Randy Rand, was a recording engineer I worked with - still a dear friend though it's been a while.

- DC

 



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